“Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out your normal healthy ability to cope with bad days and bad news, and replaces it with an unrecognizable sludge that finds no pleasure, no delight, no point in anything outside of bed. You alienate your friends because you can’t comport yourself socially, you risk your job because you can’t concentrate, you live in moderate squalor because you have no energy to stand up, let alone take out the garbage. You become pathetic and you know it. And you have no capacity to stop the downward plunge. You have no perspective, no emotional reserves, no faith that it will get better. So you feel guilty and ashamed of your inability to deal with life like a regular human, which exacerbates the depression and the isolation. If you’ve never been depressed, thank your lucky stars and back off the folks who take a pill so they can make eye contact with the grocery store cashier. No one on earth would choose the nightmare of depression over an averagely turbulent normal life.
It’s not an incapacity to cope with day to day living in the modern world. It’s an incapacity to function. At all. If you and your loved ones have been spared, every blessing to you. If depression has taken root in you or your loved ones, every blessing to you, too. No one chooses it. No one deserves it. It runs in families, it ruins families. You cannot imagine what it takes to feign normalcy, to show up to work, to make a dentist appointment, to pay bills, to walk your dog, to return library books on time, to keep enough toilet paper on hand, when you are exerting most of your capacity on trying not to kill yourself. Depression is real. Just because you’ve never had it doesn’t make it imaginary. Compassion is also real. And a depressed person may cling desperately to it until they are out of the woods and they may remember your compassion for the rest of their lives as a force greater than their depression. Have a heart. Judge not lest ye be judged.”
1. most adorable postcard from my twitter pal @catty / @cattylicious (instagram) : – ) it cheered me up immensely! 2. MOOMIN me 3. MOOMIN beeky 4. 5 eared bunny 5. drugged out moomin 6. scary salamanders by me and ross 7. RIP neil armstrong xox moomin 8. SAUCY XXX BUNNY 9. me swimming – moomin
I don’t think i got the job as i never got a phonecall whether i got the job or not. I phoned up and a girl answered, i think she got the job instead. Drats! hEAPS of retail experience needed but you need a job first —> vicious ugly cycle. Whatever. STICK IT TO DA MAN!
working on commissiomns but i am so ill; and plooey right now. gotta plough through it 😥
Rita Ora has been assaultin my ears in the nicest of ways. HOW WE DO, R.I.P and HOT RIGHT NOW are pleasantly swooshing my ear buds. Mmmm.
I want to play the Slender Man game with Ross 🙂
/over and out!
Nothing to report. Ill in bed. Duvet day with mr butters 😦
My day has been nice so far, the weather lottery has granted scorching sun where my legs are begging to be released from their beige nude nylon prison. Sitting in starbucks drinking a mango passio fruit smoothie, I can feel a cold tingling my spidy sinus senses . Not a happy bunny. I think my interview went very well. Here’s to a happpyyy phonecall tomozzles! Am addicted to squares crisps. Mmmmmm. I should’ve bought a hoisin duck wrap. The Mexican three cheese was v dissappointing. Moomins lil day out has been nice indeed but I’m a little shaky stevens hmmmmph. Over and out !
Blind Faith, Blind Lust, Blind Anger, Blind Jealousy… watch for this space!
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Had a whirlwind of a month so far, celebrated my eighteenth in style and had the best memories tucked away in my noggin’. Went on a four day London trip with the college lot and enjoyed it immensely – people are always surprised you have good manners and say please and thank you!
I’ve dip dyed my hair purple and pink (…de ja vu with the picture, non?!) and for some reason this makes people on buses want to talk to me even more.
Enjoying my shiny new HTC Wildfire S even though it spammed everyone with dozens of old texts when I synced it with my contacts …. sorry!
I am open for commissions if you’re interested – feel free to email me at email@example.com : )
Time to shine my shoes and twirl and pirouette in my tutu skirt!
An A3 sized Star Trek themed double whammy portrait, commissioned by Chris for his Uncle’s present. Worf + Sisko + gnarly spaceship,. I’ve learnt so much through this piece – altering skin tones, drawing funny folds in Worf’s face, drawing a super detailed spaceship .. splashing ink around (AS PER USUAL) 🙂
Can’t wait to see his face when he gets this!
Apologies for a tardy post but thought I’d post this, better late than never!
This was my second commission piece from a fella who wanted a black and white portrait of George Clooney for his mother’s 50th birthday. Both my client and the recipient were thrilled to bits!
Mediums used: Graphite pencil, fineline pens, screen printing ink and watercolours